I need help from an older girl D:

The guy I'm currently with is super cute, funny, and sweet. He has lots of friends, and is one of the most crushed-on guys. Sounds perfect, right?
But he's not D:
I've liked him for such along time, but it's not half as good as I imagined DX
youtu.be/O_BANzQccyo
Like this. ;0;
He's not romantic, and barely hangs out with me anymore. But (dont laugh >) I'm into black/white magic, and I have this board I always turn to when I'm confused, and It says He's still very much in love with me, but I don't like him anymore D:
And... There's a new cute/sweet asain guy in our class who always flirts with me..
and aparently I like him.
And what's worse, the more I think of it, the more it's true DX
I'm confused. Also, i'm insecure.
My er, boobs are very large =A= for my age, and even my friends flirt-tease me about them ;0;
I'm also afraid of m height, I'm not that tall, but i'm average and I wanna be short DX
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HELPPPPPP MEEEEEEEEEEEEE TT~TT